Trials & Tribulations all apart of the journey, I hope.

Whew..thank goodness this weekend is over (insert deep breath here)

About 2 months ago, I started a self proclaimed spiritual journey. 
A voyage into finding what it is that makes me happy and an attempt to nail down what my "calling" is. What it is I am suppose to contribute to this beautiful world.
Who I want to be when I grow up type of question directed at all areas of my life: love, career, relationships, and as a parent.
So I have been seeking out counseling from my spiritual adviser to learn how to pray for clarity and for direction into understanding the prayers when they are answered. As well as reading "Getting the Love you Want" by By Harville Hendrix, Helen Hunt, daily meditations, yoga, did I mention prayer and a good ole fashion trip to the hypnosist - 
The hypnosis was a desperate attempt to speed up the process of discovering "it" and delivering quick results but, $125 bucks later and a scratch off the ole Bucket List I am back to my knees in deep prayer in search of true love for myself and all things around me.
Warnings should be placed on spiritual journeys. "You will kick up all the dirt before it will settle." Lets just say I am in the dirt kicking stage of the process.
Apparently, when you seek something you can open up the possibility of all things different.  You essentially are asking the universe for clarity in which will directly expose you to things both good and bad.
I am reminding myself - I asked for this and questioning if I should be rootin' around or just let it be and wait and see?  I am letting the mud settle for now. Then I will shine up my boots and keep truckin'

Feel free to leave me comments and/or suggestions on how to keep the mud off my boots. ♥